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happiness-believer

Apart from listing goals and expectation for 2021, i would prefer reflecting 2020 more. Who knows it could be a tragedy, a rollercoaster ride for happiness-believer of pia. They said be careful what you wish for. In the beginning of 2020, I wish to be in peace. How to be calm in a busy situation, in a rough situation. I don't list it to be "a 2020 resolution". I don't trust planners, goals. To do list is quite functional for me. Planners and goals ruined me. It feels like a burden to achieve each one of them, no one told me to, but I feel the need to. So, this time, this wish is just spontaneous. It's okay if I didn't achieve that. Little that I know that I was already buying tickets for this roller coaster ride.  Thought I have it all during the start. It was easy during the start, but I feel incomplete. Maybe I was, but I learn to appreciate it when everything is gone. Ruining everything, I feel the need of positivity. Shutting out the negativity, despite th

kelam

mungkinkah ini takdirku untuk terus merasa kelam dunia bagaikan mendung tetapi tiada penghujung mungkinkah ini kifarah bagiku balasan untuk dosa masa lalu terasa bernafas dianggap dosa kerna bagaikan jam pasir akan habis dengan kematianku dianugerahkan usia muda dengan penuh kudrat untuk mengubah dunia namun di sini sekali lagi aku jatuh disebabkan fikiranku