I'm an Aurophile










happy


Tuesday, May 10, 2016 



listen close
hear i said
it might shocking you
but it always been the truth

take a deep breath
i know it's hard
it's even harder for me
to see you brokenhearted
somehow
i wanted you to smile
even though
happier than me

i know it's unbearable
you two always been one
and then i came

i know it's changed
you always been the one
you always been that friend
that he looked for
that he loved to be with
and then, i came

you might hate me now
i know you will turn away
even i didnt know you
i bring you sorrow
even we don't know each other
sometimes, unknowns
affect you more than
someone you ever know

friends sacrifice for ur happiness
but strangers hurt you even more
parents wanted to see you happy
but stranger accidentally
stole your happiness
a split of second

there you were again
heartbreaking here and there
begging for love in return
but you knew
he is not coming
coming, coming, coming
you waiting for nothing
for years you are there
you always been there
but it was useless
after all this time


insecurities


Thursday, May 5, 2016 



maybe i watch a lot of fairy tales,
maybe i am dreaming so much these days
i always wanted to be that kind girl
i always wanted to be that clever one
i always wanted to be that sporting one

looking to the mirror
figuring out what was wrong
the mirror said nothing, but this
i am the bad one
and always be

my mistakes haunting me
like there is no escape here
my past told me, i am pathetic
my future told me, stop pretending

i wish they are wrong
i know they are clueless
let them be, let them talk
they aren't talking about me
they are talking about themselves

am i a actress in a musical
for them to laugh at
when all they should do
is correct me?

i wish they saw my tears
by the window
looking at the moon
waiting for the shooting stars
to wish everything

i wish they saw my tears
when i did in my doa
that all this would change
even a little bit

but all they saw
all they heard, all they thought
are my scars, that i would keep doing that
even when i realise

did they forgot,
i am still a human being?